if your troubled you just gotta let it go

if your worried baby you just gotta let it go

I swear every day I wake up and its getting a little more real
Reider.love
ebeth
Days like today... I never knew existed before this.

My favorite part is when she comes home from work. It's like my whole day builds and builds from the anticipation. This has to be the best thing ever. I am convinced. Who every thought I would have someone in my life who is is loving, caring, supportive.. unconditionally and tirelessly. She is so smart and determined. Even when the days get harder and the nights aren't nearly long enough she finds ways to make me smile and laugh. I really want to build my life with this one. I know I thought I had it figured out in the past... but no one told me she existed. No one told me her family existed. Sometimes I am just overwhelmed with all of the emotions that she invokes with a smile... a kiss. Just pure goosebumps im telling ya!

Tonight when she gets home we are walking to Goodale (which is so amazing that we live that close) to play tennis. Neither of us are very good.. but that doesn't even matter. Then we are going to spend a quiet night at home eating dinner and watching a movie (Probably more Star Wars). We are waking up early tomorrow to go to Logan and go kayaking on the Hocking River and maybe walk along some of the trails over there. Sunday will probably be a relaxing but errand filled day. Maybe go look for a bike for her (so we can hit the trails riding).

Wait... hold on. You mean to tell me I am going to spend the weekend relaxing and doing sporty things?! With my gf?! whaaaa? AND SHE LIKES FOOTBALL. She puts up with my ridiculous taste in music (cd collection = T.I., Spice Girls, Rascal Flatts, Kylie Minogue, Ani Difranco and more) and all of the sports I watch and she thinks its cute I like watching the 6:30 news with Brian Williams. Sometimes I wonder if I have the relationship math wrong because the solution I am getting adds up way too perfectly. omg I have to keep her. I want to keep her.. :) Oh did I mention for our 1 year we are going to SOBE MIAMI (South Beach.. for those of you who aren't a gay)?! We would be going to cali but alas we aren't made of money yet... but hey... sun, sand, woman, and mmm ocean. Sounds good to me.

Sounds so unimaginably good to me. This past week was very long. She holds me down... keeps me grounded... so my head doesn't detach and go spinning off into oblivion. Thank goodness for that. Oops. It is almost 3:30 I need to tidy up. I miss you lj land. Go to YOUTUBE right now and look up: PLANET UNICORN! Omg best thing ever.

Always, one love.

Live from APT A
Reider.love
ebeth


So... after a few technical difficulties we are in the APT... and it is almost wonderful. K graduated on Sunday and we took the cutest picture ever. I thought I would spam the internets with it and make everyone jealous with how hot the girl is... especially with those tassles. harhar.

CUM LADE.

So the weekend was very eventful/stressful/amazing. There seems like there is so much to do every day and not nearly enough hours. School starts back on Monday... can you believe that? Oh well happy summer! Accounting, Law, and Pursuasion.. mm. I think I can handle it. 

Friday was moving madness.. parents meet parents day. Oh my favorite thing ever...NOT. All went as well as could be expected. Saturdaywas running around and spending 91246219864 dollars at target on a blender and other yummy things. Sunday was more family fun as the whole troupe came over from Dayton to show K some love. After bill clinton talking and the almost 7000 people rushing the stage in controlled fashion to get their diplomas we scurried off to the Longhorn and met up with my parents. The food was good. Stories about Kristen as a kid are so cute. After dinner we came back to the shoe for pictures and took her bro, sis, and uncle Nate by the APT. 

I really should be organizing... but I wanted to get back in touch with the internets. Oh well at least I am doing LAUNDRY (YAY ONLY A DOLLAR and right across the hall). One all the stuff in the place gets fixed this will be a little piece of heaven. I made dinner last night and it rocked the mouth. By the way. TIME WARNER CABLE/DVR = AMAZING. Our cable does everything but cook dinner. I bet it would heat it up if I set it on top of the box.

may all your dreams come true
Reider.love
ebeth
RASCAL FLATTS ARE COMING TO CBUS SUNDAY AUGUST 12! OMGZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

TICKETS ON SALE IN LESS THAN 2 HOURS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay. June is just wonderful. So are Visa cards. :D Last thing off the budget... promisepromise.

So after Wednesday at like 4:30ish... Spring quarter will be ovah. It has been everything from good to bad to ugly. I am really glad for it to be done. This is the week of madness. After finals and my schollarship presentation (yay free money) on Weds Kristen and I are taking everything to my parents house except for the sheets we are sleeping on and the clothes we will wear on thursday and friday. Thursday will be the KENNY CHESNEY sugarland pat greene concert at Germain... last hurrah. Then it is back for the last night in the room.. woa. Should be fun. Friday is the big day. Her parents are coming up with a truck with K's stuff and her bed and all that from Dayton. Then they will swing by my parents to pick up all of that stuff... and then the unloading and orging will begin.

This weekend - Arts Fest/Studying
Next weekend - Unpacking/GRADUATION (congrats K)
Weekend of the 16th - Nothing? (that can't be right)
Weekend of the 23rd - PRIDE! WICKED! WICKED! ..recover
Weekend of the 30th - (Fri the 29th) Air show in Dayton... mmm planes are sexxxy and then probably staying with the sweetest family evar all weekend.

Is there anyone who wants to go see the Fray on the 29th? I have two tickets that I can't use. Please email me EScott5861@hotmail.com if you are interested.  

I have been stressed. I have been difficult.. I have been a bit of everything lately. I think mostly I am thankful for all of this amazingness in my life. If you would have told me a year ago this is where I would be I would have laughed so hard I might have peed. Hopefully the grades come out okay and this can be the best summer EVAR. Congrats to Kristen for making it through and her new job. I am so proud.


I hope that the days come easy and the moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile,

But more than anything, more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you, in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
And you always give more than you take.

But more than anything, yeah, and more than anything,
My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

Weekend of goodness
Reider.love
ebeth
Really... truly... she is amazing.

We had been having some.. eh. rough spots. But this weekend was a much needed breath of wonderfulness.

Friday I got out of work and went to my parents for some deep cleaning of their house accompanied with west wing watching, ice cream, and um more cleaning. It was a gym night... and we kicked back and relaxed after going to Target and picked up a great game called Whoonu.. which we have proceeded to make up our own rules for.

Saturday she went to class and I got up and cleaned and organized for round 2 of operation get-rid-of-Kristens-old-crap-she-does-not-need-but-wont-get-rid-of-because-she-is-a-pack-rat. I went back to my parents house while she continued to work on a paper. I came back and we went to Surly Girl. Pineapple Margaritas are GREAT. Played Whoonu.

Sunday woke up and got PANCAKES. Saw the duckies and albino squirrel as we searched for a gym that was open before noon. There werent any gyms on campus open before noon so we came back and played more Whoonu... took a nap. I went out to Easton while Kristen worked more on paper.. I went in search of a cheap sectional couch... such a thing does not exsist. I studied at ZenCha. We splurged on Union Showtunes. Came back and watched "Bobby." I love watching movies and drinking root beer.

Today... MUCH NEEDED EXTRA DAY OF REST. Kristen went in to work for a little while... I cleaned more and moved more crap from room to parents. We just got back from a big cookout at the Scotts.. which was good food. Chicken, burgers, hot dogs, baked beans, corn, broccoli, watermellon. Yum.

Moving in 10 days and counting... graduation in 12... Wicked in 26 :) So there has been a lot of stuff to do. Kristen has a lot of... um.. stuff. And so because we are moving to a pretty small place we need room for her stuff + my stuff + dressers, queen size bed (yum), couch, table... blahblahblah... in about as much space as this post takes up on your screen (okay not that small.. but it is little). The location is WONDERFUL and overall I am excited. The stress is temperarory and I think Kristen and I have been handling it all well. I love her very much. Soon we will have a real sized refrigerator... and bed.. and stuff! Only 2 more weeks(ish) of school. I think I can handle it.

SUMMER IS SO CLOSE. June is so close.... my favorite month. :) A rundown of events is coming... so.. stay tuned!

Week of sleeplessness
sexy back
ebeth
Life is like Jenga... "edge of your seat FUN!" hahaha. 

So Kristen starts her new job on Monday. That is totally exciting and awesome and cool. Yays for that. We are going to see Amberlin at the Basement on Tuesday... I am seeing KATIE REIDER on Thursday with T! That pretty much sounds like one of the best weeks EVAR. Things for the apartment are coming together. I just need to call the cable people and get it set up for a Friday in June (ps. cable costs wayyyy too much). My hair is very long right now (for me). It needs cut yesterday. 

I am trying to get in at least 2 miles of cardio every day. So far I am 3 out of 4 days of doing that. I hurt but life isnt painless I suppose. 56 days until WICKED! Oh and June is almost a month away.... which is going to bring OH so much fun. I hope you are having a good day. As soon as the sleepyfaces wake up in Baker West its going to be a clean-a-fest-a-thon. Oh random! The ducks had their baby duckies! Yays they are so cute and fuzzy.

Who wants to reccomend a Gym for K??? She is going to be working downtown by the Ohio Theater on State Street. She wants to go to the gym after work (like 5:30-6ish) and wants to know a place that will have enough cardio machines and the like so she wont be waiting for 10 mins between each thing. She knows it will be busy then because that is when everyone and their mom goes but thats her only option really. Plus that way it gives me enough time to come home from class and such and make dinner :). 

Ebeth = SUPERsweet.
Katie Reider = SUPERfabulouslyAwesome. Go see her on thurs at House of Crave... cause you know you have been CRAVIN some KR.

its moments like these that I live for
contagious
ebeth
So lots of things have been going on....

School is pretty crazy but I am getting through. Kristen helped me figure out my sched for summer and fall. So hopefully the boss will say yes and all will be happy.

I am watching Kristen read right now... and it is so cute. The way she holds her highlighter and plays with her hair and rests her head on her left hand. She is so smart and pretty wonderful and amazing. Everything isn't always easy or perfect... but I don't want it to be. I really couldn't be more fortunate right now. I get to live with her pretty much for free. She is graduating. We are moving into an el cheap apartment in a PERFECT location (between work and school in the short north on the west side of high between 1st and 4th). June will be here before we know it and it will be a month of fun in the sun and concerts galore! oh and gay pride and comfest and arts fest... ahkasfjh. We can literally walk to goodale park.. or to get a smoothie.. or TEA.. or to go to the new union. The possibilities are endless.

I am so lucky to be with someone so understanding. Seriously. I have been pretty private and to myself about this whole thing... but she is so incredible in so many ways. I just am so excited for all of these positive changes in our life. I am really motivated to finish school. I have never taken summer classes before but I am so ready to be done.

Life is just amazing right now. I am so glad that I am not waiting for something anymore. That something is right here and right now.. sitting less than five feet away from me. I love her so.

ebeth: you are what you own [penguin boxers]
sexy back
ebeth

don't breathe too deep

Between Ohio State and NWide being on my side... I have had little time for myself. Let ALONE the things/people/places which are most important to me. This has made me sad in the past couple weeks as finals are approaching (more like... attacking).

don't think all day

So I have had a lot on my mind. Mainly basketball, food, and music. Basketball is well.. amazing and it is one of the main things in life that I live for. Well the women's and men's teams are Big Ten chumpsAHEMM..champs! It sucked losing Brandie with the freaking achilles. Major bummer. I guess Pack hurt her foot tonight vs Indiana. Yes that's right.. it's big ten tourney time in Indianapolis... and I am in... C-Bus. That is when you know it is bad my friends. That is a PERFECT segway in to food. mmmmM. Old Spaghetti Factory sounds so good right now. I am really trying to eat better but the butterey salty cheesy goodness that is Mizithra cheese spaghetti is so amazing. Hey if it worked for Homer (the dude who wrote The Oddessy) then it can work for me. Maybe that is just what I need to finish writing my "Don't Ask, Don't Tell".. or as I call it The Big Gay Paper. I mean it is gaytofab and all.. with all the lesbo research and all. Music wise, I am lovin gay things like Wicked and Rent and Ave. Q and LeMis and.. yeah. Oh and JOSH GROBAN. Wow. Justin Timberlake is a sexy man by the way. You should check out Steve Means if you get a chance too.. he is up and coming and is about to take the world on by storm.

dive into work

All the research on TBGP makes me more and more curious about the Marines. I mean.. yeah it would be effen stupid.. and as Sean's GF would say.. "EFFIN TREATEROUS" to do that after college. But I mean.. how much better can you get...? To serve and protect your country.. or at least contribute? That is up there with serving at the pleasure of the President and shit. Or maybe just global corporate domination.. heh. I have found my love for process improvement since our department re-orged and re-produced... and whatev. I know A LOT of people who bitch about their jobs.. and I do my fair share. But ya know, you can't get much better of a company than Nationwide (to work for). You work for compensation.. and I must say it is pretty fine. I am not feeling poor right now so BlingBling$$$Ca$hMoney.

drive the other way

There are a lot of positive things going on in the life. I mean school.. I am surviving. Work.. I am ACHIEVING and well.. dominating the package distribution because that's how I roll. The girl.. she is pretty sweet ;). I meam she left for Dayton today to go back and take care of some stuff and she left me TWO notes... not one.. but two! How sweet is that? Also she accompanied me to the 20 Straws (Big Gay Movie about fabulous gay kids!). The project is phenomenal www.videooutreach.org GO DONATE MONEY!!BLING. Why is it though with all this awesomeness going on in my life (TeaDates at the ZenCha, beautiful girl, ANGIE WELLMAN, basketball, etc) I still am like.. upset about some things. Just remember sweetie.. I still think of you and wonder how you are doing and where you are.. yeah that's right because I CARE. Walking away? Not me. Unless it's requested in a song/dance off. So maybe one day if you want you could call me and talk and forget about all this madness like nothing EVAR happened. You just smiled too.. I know it. So there :P

Oh yeah.. and engineering dude.. stop being so shitty to my girlDDR (she lives across the hall.. supersweet dance major). Oh and PrincessTara...? MIA? Where the fuck did ya go girlie? Oh yah you are too busy reading and rereading your girlfriends loveposts that make me puke (in jealousy.. cause shes got game.. where did my game like that go?!?! damnnnnn). Haha. Just kiddin but I miss ya. We should all do dinner or YOU AND I should do something when the fuckin quarter is over cause yeah.. it has owned me.

I'm not alone

Angie is fuckin amazing. That is all. If I could make a list of people who rock she def rocks the hardest. I seriously have no idea who/where I would be today without her. So props. Miss ya K, T, N, B, and yes.. A. Surprized? You shouldn't be.. you know me. 

One love.


WHYYYYYYYYY must you go
contagious
ebeth
.. be there!

For real. Katie Reider is going to be leaving the 614 for Jersey or some crazy shit like that... so come out and support her last show in the capital city for a while.

SO BE AT THE BASEMENT 8:30 FRIDAY

...im serious

::tear::

My love for you
Is higher than the stars above
And my love for you
Will meet you where you are

Why do I feel this way
Why do I love you the way I do

My love for you
I think I love you so
My love for you
I think I love you so

Tell me why I feel this way
Everytime you glance my way
With you I wouldn't, couldn't change a thing
You are my, you are my only need

And my love for you
Is higher than the stars above
And my love for you
Will meet you where you are

Why do I feel this way
Why do I love you the way I do
My love for you
I think I love you so
My love for you
I think I love you so
My love for you
I think I love you so


so yeah.. KATIE REIDER

Know that you are very much on my mind today.
Reider.love
ebeth
such an intent stare
one eye at a time
your talons like fish hooks
you are a rare bird
the kind I wouldn't even mind
writing in the margins of my books

sometimes I see myself
through the eyes of a stray dog
from an alley across the street
and my whole mission just seems so finite
my whole saga just seems so cheap

I mean I know that now is all there is
and love'll just makes you cry
so I live for the sight of a rare bird
suddenly flying by

and I meet your stare
one eye at a time
writing in the margins
of my mind

sometimes I see myself
through the eyes of a stray dog
from an alley across the street
and my whole mission just seems so fine
my whole saga just seems so cheap

and that's when your song calls to me
from way up in a tree
and I look up
and the whole world
is as it should be

--Ani "In the Margins"


How I wish I could hear your song tonight. Good luck.

yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
big ten champs
ebeth
The colts are playing AT HOME SUNDAY VS THE PATS!
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

I so can't wait. This is the year for manning and co. Get er done boys!

Oh I love football so much. Almost as much as I love my best girl :) who watched football with me yet again all weekend. How lucky can I get?

Oh and puls the OState lady bucks reped it today im sure.. playing the mighty wildcats of nortwestern who we have beat 12 times in a row. Oh yeah we dominate. Is it Sunday yet?? Oh how I wish I could afford the $1000 bucks for last row corner enzone seats... we could get some of that fav spaghetti. Life would be wonderful. What am I talking about.. life is wonderful.


... go colts!

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